“I’ll have the banana breakfast smoothie and toast,” I smiled at the young guy behind the counter at a hole in the wall cafe in Dublin. Little did I know how much I would come to regret those words.
I had been in Europe for 10 months, studying abroad in Salamanca, Spain and I was on my way home to America for the summer. I caught a flight deal with a layover in Ireland, so my best friend N, her brother and her cousin and I decided to check out Dublin for a week.
Settling down in a booth in the back, N and I started gabbing about what we were going to do for the day in Dublin. Like many under-twenty-one year old Americans abroad, it didn’t take long for us to decide on the Guinness and Jameson factories as our hot spots for the day.
As the waiter brought our food over, I slipped my Ireland guidebook back in my messenger bag and prepared to tuck in. I was hungry! I took a bite of my toast and then grabbed my smoothie. I took a couple big chugs of my drink, swallowing everything before a look of complete horror passed over my face.
“F***! This smoothie has peanut butter in it!”
This may not sound like a big deal to most people, but I am violently allergic to peanuts. And not get a rash, swell up and take a Benadryl kind of allergic, I’m talking head to foot hives, my throat closes up and I go into anaphylactic shock and could DIE kind of allergic.
Ever since I found out I had a peanut allergy in kindergarten when my class made peanut butter and oat dog biscuits for Clifford the Big Red Dog and I ended up in the ER, peanuts have been the bane of my existence.
I am not exactly innocent when it comes to my allergy. In fact, I am rather lazy about have a life-threatening illness. I am very adventurous when it comes to trying new food, and (until Dublin) I almost never ask if it a dish contains peanuts.
In the States I usually don’t have to worry because every restaurant and food provider is so afraid of getting smacked with a lawsuit, they label everything. In Spain I didn’t really have to worry either because peanuts (cacahuetes) are a very uncommon ingredient. I know what foods are known to have peanuts, like Asian noodles, Thai restaurants, Reese’s pieces and unlabeled cookies. I carry Benadryl and an Epi-pen with me wherever I go. Unfortunately my live-saving Epi-pen expired when I was in Spain and I never bothered to get a new one since I was coming home.
For those of you who haven’t seen Pulp Fiction, an Epi-pen is a shot of epinephrine (adrenaline) that people like me carry around with them in case a peanut sneaks up on them unaware, like in a smoothie. SERIOUSLY, WHO PUTS PEANUT BUTTER IN A BANANA SMOOTHIE? You have to pull the cap off and stick it in your leg for 10 seconds to prevent death. It’s like magic.
Now normally I have the nose of a bloodhound when it comes to peanuts. I can smell them from fifty yards away, even cooked in food, so I almost always catch the little buggers before consumption. If the stray peanut does get by my nose, I can usually taste it and spit it out immediately before swallowing, leaving me with hives and welts in my mouth, which SUCKS but it could be worse. What is truly dangerous is when a peanut goes down my throat.
Now I drank AND swallowed a good quarter of that smoothie before realizing it had peanut butter in it. And I didn’t have an Epi-pen. As my southern relatives are fond of saying, I was up the proverbial shit creek without a paddle.
Tears welled in my eyes and I started cursing, shaking my hands around yelling “what do I do? what do I do?!” (poor N, V, and C, I owe them a dinner just thinking about this story and what they had to put up with)! Grabbing a napkin, I tried to scrub out any peanut smoothie residue from my mouth before grabbing a glass of water and running to the bathroom.
If you don’t have a food allergy, it is really hard to describe the feeling you experience after eating something like a peanut. Your mouth and throat burns and itches, it gets tight and you can’t breath, it literally feels like someone is shoving a spiky pillow down your throat to suffocate you. It is the most horrible, scariest feeling I have ever experienced.
It doesn’t help that I am completely irrational and my first reaction is that I am going to die, usually leading to me having a panic attack in addition to an allergy attack. Wonderful.
Now, I don’t want to gross out my more delicate readers, but basically I drank as much water as I could and stuck my fingers down my throat. Better out than in. Unfortunately it didn’t really help. I think consuming peanut butter (which is very concentrated) and as a liquid it went to work much faster on my body than I anticipated. N was trying to get me to go to the hospital, but I stubbornly insisted I would be fine. The tail end of a trip from a year in Europe? I was church mouse poor. I couldn’t afford an ER visit with no health insurance. I made N scamper off to a pharmacy for meds while I tried to get it together in a dingy little diner bathroom.
At this point, I could barely breathe. The room was spinning and my whole body hurt. The last coherent thought that passed through my mind was that I didn’t want to die on the floor of a diner bathroom. Then I passed out cold. In retrospect, it’s the only time in my life I have passed out in a bathroom stone-cold sober, rather ironic, no?
Not one of my finer moments.
I would faint two more times that day and it took nearly 24 hours for my body to recover. I couldn’t keep down any medicine, food or water for a day, and I can’t remember ever being in so much pain in my life; it retrospect it was incredibly stupid for me not to go to the hospital. I was lucky I didn’t die.
But you know what I felt the worst about? I felt both guilty and humiliated.
There is nothing worse than having no control over your body. I should have asked if that smoothie had nuts in it (in my defense, it did have the ingredients listed, just not peanut butter) but I should have known better. Being in Europe people don’t have the same issues with food allergies and labeling like we do in the US. It was humiliating for my friends to see me so sick and so unable to take care of myself. I hate getting ill in public. And I felt guilty that my food allergy ruined our day in Dublin and that N and her family had to nurse me back to health. No Jameson factory for us, though maybe if we had gone, a shot of whiskey might have cleared all the peanut proteins from my system. They would have had to carry me though, I could barely walk.
This was something I never wanted to experience again.
What to take away from this?
For me, travel and food are invariably linked. I will never sacrifice traveling because of a peanut allergy. One of the best ways to get to know a country and it’s culture is through its food. I believe the two can coexist in relative peace, if you are careful and plan accordingly. I even believe that one day I can travel safely around such peanut-infested places like Thailand (oh snap! Did I just give away one of my upcoming trips?!)
Talking with Jodie from Legal Nomads at TBEX in Girona about her experiences traveling gluten-free inadvertently encouraged and inspired me to evaluate my own trips and I how I prepare and deal with roaming the world with a potential life-threatening illness.
Apart from simply being more careful in the future, I’ll always make damn sure I’m covered for health and travel insurance. I recently discovered World Nomads Travel Insurance which, when compared with other insurance companies I’ve used before, seems unbeatable. They have customizable and affordable policies that fit with any travel style. Each policy is flexible, can be changed at any time and covers ALL the adventure sports!
This post is the first in a series I am developing about how to travel with a food allergy. From my own traumatizing experience in Dublin, I am going to show you how to travel the world safely with a food allergy, like peanuts.
Get excited allergy people!
I learned a valuable lesson that day on the bathroom floor in Dublin: how to be a cautious and aware food traveler. Not to mention, I now have an irrational fear of banana smoothies, which sucks because I love bananas and I love smoothies, just not together. Shudder.
I’m excited to revisit Dublin for TBEX Europe 2013 and see what food curveballs this city has in store for me!
Do you have a food allergy? How do you cope with it while traveling? Have you ever had a scary food incident abroad?
94 Comments on “Almost Dying in Dublin”
Just reading this story made me cringe. Something very similar happened to me on my first visit to San Sebastian about 10 years ago. I ate something that I was allergic to apparently, but had no idea at the time, monkfish.
Since I’ve never had food allergies, I was totally unprepared for what happened. I’ll spare you the details, but it includes passing out in the middle of the restaurant and being ill in front of the entire room. Then, I woke up to the chef slapping me in the face with his wet, dirty towel trying to get me the heck off the floor and out of his restaurant. Then, the ambulance finally showed up.
I was also with friends and we were only in town for two nights. They were terrified for me and helped me the entire time. If it wasn’t for them, I think the restaurant staff would have thrown me out in the alley!
Thank God you survived and yes, go to the hospital next time, missy!
OMG that must have been so scary when you didn’t even know you were allergic! That’s a random allergy, are you allergic to anything else?
I don’t know what I would have done without my friends! I might have died in the bathroom if my friend N hadn’t smacked me hard enough to wake me up!
I was so stupid not to go to the hospital, I just convinced myself I would be fine in a few minutes, I’m so stubborn sometimes!
Can’t help but mention that most emergency rooms are happy to help stabilize someone in a true emergency… I know you “know” you should have went in hindsight, but… You should have went! They can bill you & you can pay $20/month until your slate is clean, or many hospitals have programs where if you are unable to pay, they can write it off… Avoiding a hospital bill is not worth your life. As a mother & a nurse, reading your story made me cringe. I love your blog, but not this one!!
Plus in a lot of places in Europe they have socialized health care and won’t even ask if you live there, they’ll just treat you. I know that’s the case in the UK, it might be in Ireland as well.
Also, expired Epi-Pen = Better than NO Epi-Pen.
I kind of can’t believe no one made you go to the hospital after you passed out… or at least asked around til they found someone with an Epi. And the restaurant didn’t even call an ambulance? This whole situation is just full of people being very irresponsible- you’re super lucky to be alive, I’ve never even heard of someone surviving anaphylactic shock without treatment :-/
Oh my gosh just terrifying! I always am nervous trying some things because I fear an allergy I don’t know about. Like when doctors say are you allergic to any medications and I have no idea because I’ve never taken it.
it was so scary! Worst day ever! Totally tainted my memory of dublin and scared me off banana smoothies for life!
i no what you mean i almost died in paris a few years after being told
something had no nuts i never wont to go back
My daughter is in Madrid now. She is 17 and facetimes her twin with a rash. Swollen eye and wheezing. She has never done this. I packed a medicine cabinet for her to take but forgot benadryl. Luckily she gad dramamine that had 50 mg of benadryl. Did better after 45 min but eue still swollen thus morning. None of the chaperones would answer their phones. Shes crying. Im upset. Extremely mad! Worried that she couldnt find benadryl. Still not sure if they did. Guide was supposed to help her find some. Im 4000 miles away. No more Tapas for her. They had burger king in toledo spain today. Allergist in order when she gets home next week
Oh my god, that sounds terrifying! I’m really looking forward to Dublin 2013 too, but I’m pretty sure I wouldn’t be facing a brush with death and the comeback as cheerfully as you are here! Aah!
haha I am definitely looking forward to giving Dublin a second chance in October 🙂
So scary! I am lucky I don’t have food allergies, nor have I traveled with anyone who does. I think it’s incredible how much our bodies have change, biologically, and we’re now suffering all kinds of allergies that never existed a few centuries ago. Be safe, chiki!
it’s really interesting because other countries like Spain, don’t really have issues with allergies like peanuts.
Hi Liz, That’s actually not true. Unfortunately they are seeing allergies worldwide.
I am speaking from experience, and from my experience living in Spain for 3+ years and traveling to 30+ countries, most countries do not have the same quantity or severity of peanut allergies like in the US/Uk or commonwealth countries.
Dear Liz, I am Spanish and a mom of an allergic teen. My son has had to spend a number of times many hours in the ER due to severe reactions to nuts. His last episode was triggered by cross contamination and he had his lungs collapse and nearly died. He was in intensive care for a couple of days. We are extremely careful and carry two epi pens everywhere we go he has his ID bracelet and never eats without asking first. The problem here is people don’t care about allergic people, for this reason there is less emphasis on labels. As for people not having it, you are very wrong, there are 20 kids in my sons class and 2 are allergic to nuts, one to egg and another to gluten. On average in Spain you have 1 child in every class rom who suffers some kind of food allergy. Sorry to burst your bubble but we do have allergies in Spain, only people die frequently from them in the streets because there is no knowledge on how to handle them. There are more deaths due to allergic reactions in Spain in one year than in the state of Florida in the same period of time.
you are responsible for managing your life and it looks like you have learned a hard lesson. it seems to me that you have also realized that not looking after yourself is a little selfish, you frightened your friends to death and I would dread to think of your parents.
I admire your willingness to live your life to the full, and hope that you are careful, it isn’t just about food you eat but also being vigilant of things like what someone else eats before you kiss… Look after yourself and enjoy your precious life,.